While facilitating a circle today, I had the experience of speaking truth and literally getting up and walking out of the room. I felt so uncomfortable being seen as a source of truth, that I couldn't be still at a precious moment in time when stillness was necessary.
In the past, I've always facilitated with a partner or teacher, something to hide behind or hold me in a moment like this. This time, I was alone sourcing something beyond myself and feeling so utterly naked I ran away.
And, in that running was perfection. I saw myself. I saw myself running, running from the truth and seeing myself revealed. Shame passed and I found myself laughing at how beautiful it is to discover what I run from.
And, still I must learn to wait. I long for truth to part my lips and surf the moment without a single quiver. No disturbance or interruption of thought. Just straight truth escaping from my heart and penetrating into another.
Marcella, this moved me so much due to your intention, (which I share.) I have the intuition that you "stay" more than you "run" and that permission to run is perhaps a good part of the learning process. Sometimes, I am challenged to do things completely differently. I only got here, due to my concern for you with the email received this morning allegedly from Spain.
ReplyDeleteI am waiting to see if it is real.....as I have just been a victim of fraud by such kind of email.
Anyway, it got me connected with you. Blessings! Puja
Puja, I have just returned here to my blog after many years, inspired to write, again. What a pleasure to have a wise elder present, with such a clear, caring heart! You exemplify what stirred me from my sleep today. I love you madly!
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